Trying to get Pregnant Again

I was having a difficult time last night, deciding whether or not I wanted to get back on the saddle and try to get pregnant again. The reason why, because I knew I would be ovulating today. I lied in bed thinking, should I, should we, is it safe, is it meant to be like this, should we wait, am I ok down there? I still have some pain occasionally, but the doctor told me everything was alright, that we could resume sexual activities. 

So you see, all of these questions were twirling around in my mind. My husband and I talked about it and agreed we would wait until the morning. I wasn’t convinced, part of me felt like if I have a chance and I didn’t take it I would regret it later.

When I woke up this morning, I received a email, from a friend in Germany, these were her words verbatim, “Lily please do us One favour!!! Don't give a shit of what the others say..Listen to your Heart and to your Body! If you feel ok then start to become pregnant again do it!!!” After reading this email, I knew it was a sign, confirming my apprehensions from the night before. I began to cry.  My husband came downstairs to eat breakfast and he saw me sitting there quietly sobbing.

I told him about the email and how I felt about it, and how I had some regret for not trying. He listened and he looked at me with eyes filled with sincerity and said, “Let’s go upstairs.” 

We had a brief discussion about our circumstance and little time to act. He needed to be in practice at 10 am, it was already a little past 9 am. Well...we decided to try, and though it might not result in a pregnancy, at least I will know, we will know, we at least tried, which is the first step to creating a New Life.