Back to the Beginning...

Today I had an appointment with Dr. Elisabeth Sauze, the primary care doctor I went to during my pregnancy. The same doctor I went to 2 days before the boys were born, the one that told me everything was fine.

I got everything I wanted and all of my questions answered. I don’t have cervical cancer, I don’t have any infections, and she was able to her to write me the  prescriptions I need to go forth with IVF , and I have an appointment to check for cervical incompetence on Feb. 2, 2011.

It’s wasn’t easy. I thought I would be able to handle the visit without tears, I couldn’t. I tried my best, but the memory of being there pregnant, happy, and healthy was overwhelming me. How so much had changed in such a short time. 

Of course, I did manage to pull myself together before entering her office. When she opened the door, her face was firm with concern. I could tell how truly sorry she was for what happened to us. We sat down, and I gave her my list of requests translated into French. She proceeded to tell me her  hypothesis of what occurred according to the facts of my situation.

She said, it was impossible to tell there was a problem, with my history of such good health and that fact my cervix was fine when she checked me less than two days before the boys were born. My husband, being the awesome bad-ass that he is, called her out. At first, I thought, ‘Amore no, what are you doing?’ then I realized, ‘wait, he’s right, way to go baby, grill her, grill her!!’ 

Bogdan said, “If you knew the circumstances of our situation, that we did IVF, and that she was having twins, that this pregnancy was high-risk, why didn’t you think to put a cerclage before?”

Her response, “In France, we put a cerclage only when we know that a problem exists. It was impossible to know before there was a problem, because the cervix opened so quickly. I had 8 cerclages, because my first pregnancy my cervix was open and I stay 3 months on bed-rest.”

Yes, this woman (and she’s a doctor) has 9 children. This was the main reason I wanted to remain with her as my primary health care provider. She’s got experience, 9 kids, one at a time. Crazy. Nowadays 3 kids are a lot, imagine 9. 

Anyway, we accomplished everything we set out to do. I’m satisfied for now, there’s still much to be done, but for today, I’m good.